Achievement unlocked

Just...feel...unlocked!

At first, I believe that I'm a shy girl which can't speak out.
I'm afraid to speak out what I thought in public, to avoid any confrontation with people.

But through my company (that I worked for now) I'm changing.
Too much problem that I can't handle at first and too many kind of people with different behavior made me feel that I can't just stand and see what happen next.

Clearly remember in my head, I'm crying, literally crying when have the first meeting with her. The sister of "you know who". While some people must be think that I'm weird, since she's only just a piece of cake rather than her sister. But I feel really stupid and can't understand anything about my job. That's miserable.

And the other crying incident that involved another department, and another crying which also involved another department. And one and one another, whoa too much?

But mostly I'm crying because I'm too angry. I can't express my self, I can't express my feeling freely. Just too hard to speak anything (once I hoped that they can understand that I'm angry not a whiny girl, but I'm sure that they don't).

Now, I can proudly present every people a largest smile that I had. Since I've already beat her! whoa! I mean I can speak and explain what I thought without intimidating. That's really a progress...for me. Just can't believe that it's really happen and silly me I kept tell everyone about my story, which I know that not everyone are pleased to hear my story.

But still....achievement unlocked!
Can't described my feeling, I feel blessed and happy and and and more happy hahahaha! :)

Cheers!

Comments

nindi onnie, this is kind of little cute things right :">

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Jalan Masa Depan

Tetiba kepikiran sama pekerjaan yang sekarang. Suka banget sama kantornya kenapa? Karena kerjaannya bukan? Atau sama orang orangnya? Atau karena peraturannya? Selama ini suka banget sama orang orangnya. Rasanya bukan kayak berangkat kantor tapi berangkat main. Kalo misalkan mereka ngga ada dan tergantikan gimana? Aku ngga siap kayaknya :') Satu udah pergi, satu lagi juga mau pergi. Yang satunya belum tentu bakal ada disitu terus. Rasanya pengen bilang kalo udah disini aja ngga usah kemana mana. Tapi masa depan kan di tangan masing masing, ngga bisa ngikutin, ngga bisa dipaksain. Pada akhirnya semua akan ada di jalan pilihannya sendiri. Manusia memang makhluk sosial, tapi juga bukan tempat untuk bergantung. Harus belajar ikhlas. People change anytime. Dijaga aja kenangannya biar ngga pudar :')

Looking for a friend

What do you see from your parents? I just see religion, less love and affection. The way you communicate is important, how you can feel alive and be the person loved at home. The things I know is, I don't want to raise my children like my parents raised me. That's not good and not appropriate. Yes, I'm aware of the religion but I didn't get any value and advice. Mostly are unreasonable explanation and I can't get any good discussion. Either way I got high voice upon me or they didn't hear any words came through my mouth. I'm an adult already, need a discussion in both way not just 'Hey, we're your parents. You can't say anything againts us, it's not allowed in our religion'.

no grievance, bye grievous!

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